Dying to Be Thin: Scale of Self-Worth

Intense coldness is an uncomfortable feeling for humanity due to the absence of a normal body temperature. There were nights that required me to wear a heating pad as if it were an extension of my clothing. My body temperature was too low, but that was just the beginning. My hair which normally grew like plants in a greenhouse slowed, and my nails became very brittle and were blue more times then not because of poor circulation as well as the low body temperature. Also, the cycle of sleep was in pure disruption with my waking at before 3 AM on most days so I could exercise. Even as my skin began to turn yellow, my speech began to slow, and I had little energy after the hours of exercise I just kept on going. If I didn't really pay attention to what I saw and felt in the pain of these medical conditions it was not real. Denial was my best friend because as long as I could still go power walking or lifting weights I was "healthy".